9/11, and Farmville,a tale of 2 realities...

Hi Y'all, I was tired and on my way to get on my farm... Maybe it's the full(Milk)Moon in Scorpio,which is a water sign,can be flowing along,can be like a scorpion stinger... Water and air signs,can be a time of dreamy aspects.
It also can be spacey,start out one place end up in another ya didn't plan on being... That's the case here,I was planning on spacing out,relaxing and designing on my Farmville space! I have a big Farm on my main one.(There are others too--) mine is sort of like a Disneyland area! I have my Asian "World" Wild west area,majick/fantasy/Unicorn side,and other cool things going on there! it helps me wind down & relax(except when it won't load right!) There is a lot I am processing in my mind,on a personal,spiritual,level. There are so many awesome folks in my life now,that it's a juggling act to stay in touch,get my own stuff done,and work on my many writing projects. I have Kabbalah class 2 x a week,plus studying--which I enjoy. I have about 20 books waiting for me to read! Though I am reading one that made so many questions I had over the past lifetime,seem lucid. 
I'm the type who would rather have the truth,no matter how ugly it may be. And so after digging through real facts in http://www.amazon.com/Most-Dangerous-Book-World-Ritual 

I can see why 9/11 happened the way it did.... As a child,I watched them build the Twin Towers,we could see them on Subway rides into the city. Later as a teen,had visions of bad destruction to come in later years. It was so bad,I was in the hospital 3 months. I thought I lost my mind. But when you think/see in your minds eye,of these things,who could one tell? People would think you mad. Theres a history of folks who "saw" things,some were burn4ed at the stake. maybe it was awhile back,still I thought it best as the song goes(Fleetwood Mac) "I keep my visions to myself..." I dreamed my baby brother Jeffrey had died,and I was going to his funeral. One month later he did die,under weird circumstances.I had begged him to leave Brooklyn and come to oregon. He said he would in the fall.He died May 1982. people who know me,know I would never lie--let alone about something heartbreaking serious as that.
All i ever wanted was justice in this world,for people to not have to go hungry or be sick,because they were poor.  I wanted to make the world a better place,to bring love & my skills to try to join with others who want to repair the world. the more people join in energy or prayers-or vibes to make things better. It will happen-- it will take time,because so much damage has been done to people~animals~and the planet. Evil will destroy itself in the end.There is no real power in hating and hurting. it may seem like evil has taken over,it never will. it's pushing a trip...On my Farm it is nice and peaceful.Fun to look at,it is my world! Outside I see the Moon shining and know that even though 9/11 was caused by those who wanted power and $ at any cost,and to play sick games--and blame muslims,to play more war--shame---- in the end the dirt comes out of the wash.... I never plan what i will write for the most part.Nights like this the words seem to "write themselves"
Here is a good link to Real info on Kabbalah,a library!http://www.kabbalah.info/eng/content/view/frame/2373?/eng/&main
 I'm really tired Y'all.Have a  great night----