Welcome & have a seat folks! Here come's another installment of (Pick one!)
"AS the Stomach turns..."
"My life as a recovering (from psychotic people in my life )ex-member."
"The turning of a brighter page to be or not to be,as it was once spoken..."
I've been sick,and am slowly getting better from this whole past year...
I think back to years past,and things I have written,many of the over 100 journals lost to the sands of time... But the memories still live within me!
This was a cruel year in many ways to me,yet now it's as if I was looking through to a mirror,that would lead me to my true home and people who support me,not bully me.
I am grateful for all the blessings that came to me,in the way of reconnecting with folks who really did love & care about me.
If nothing else I have found that caring people are more important then things, that It really can be " A wonderful life" If we work hard to make it so. Some think that life should just drop all the good stuff down and they "shouldn't"have to suffer or have to wait for things. So many are deluded in their thinking about whats okay or not.
It is not right to push people around because one thinks" They are better,or smarter or more worthy..."
In the end we all bleed blood,we all get cold and tired. We all get hungry. It's our purpose in life to lift others up- Not push em down on the ground,and kick them.
I miss so many,yet I have faith that those who were hurt because of others bad distortions, deceptions and unsound decisions,will reap what is good for them. Some think it right to tear down, I believe we are here to build-up. An old Yiddish proverb says: " It is cheaper to mend then replace..." It is easy to say one thing,yet do another. Our actions should show the world,we mean what we say.
So in years past,I would just write in notebooks or whatever,and record the weather,News and what the family was doing at the time! It was like I could find what we were doing on a certain day-week or year. Sadly all that remain are 6 of the books I kept over a lifetime. If it would have been up to my Child Jazzy,we would have had most if not all,but I wasn't told she wanted to have my journals sent from New Orleans first. I only learned that a month ago. be that as it may,The format may have changed,the words and meaning are just the same! I'm so happy to live in peace with my family. My first writing project will be the first 13 years of my life. I was told then,I should write a book! Well Ya gotta start somewhere,so I see a bunch of folks are reading this!
More & more will be,and thats great,thats sort of why we are here--to learn from each other & do our best to make the world a better place,not to just complain about it!! I have always had a hell of a sense of humor,I had to. Some of the things I have lived through might have ended someone who was not as brave as I became.
I found an Oldie radio station,I used to listen to years ago here in Oregon.Most of my growing up years,were found with me listening to my little transistor radio,my grandpa Moe bought me.
There have been so many stories of my own history,I have shared with others,in the hopes of helping.
So many amazing things I have seen,and so many places all over the USA,I have lived worked,played and tried to remember my soul as well! I have given a lot of thought to what I did yesterday. Now I am an ordained Priest/Minister. This is very sacred to me. I have studied and experienced many faiths,and it helps me be a better human!
Of course the link is having issues of course!
I did it!
I hope Y'all have a happy whatever you enjoy. I'm tired but wanted to share my gratitude and smilesxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxo
So just to add-on, I think it's okay to consider me a Priestess. I'm really enjoying my Kabbalah class with Michael Laitman also! This is as close as I could come to being either a Rebbe,Catholic Nun or all around Spiritwriter!
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